decide..

Here we are at the end of the month of syawal. also the end of september, which is part of the year 2011's final quarter. our convocation looms, bringing along a frenzy of questions and last minute payments & preparations. sigh..

what about work? not really enjoying it. what is my purpose of even being there? i wonder. i don't wanna be accused of hopping jobs, but under the circumstances...

crappy decisions everywhere..

thrown

You say you care, but you want to be out of their lives. how is that even possible?
why do you keep pushing people you care about away? just because you have bad history with it doesn't mean you have to avoid it from happening again every single time, cuz that's just BS.
or is it because they - or rather, I - don't really matter that much to you? is it that i just happened to be conveniently there for you? now i'm not there, you can just discard me like a torn t-shirt?

it's just plain selfish. and i never thought you to be as one. you disappoint me.

Weekend after Raya

Start the day with a cup of coffee, as usual.

At noon, went out to reload my TnG, then picked up my school besties to go beraya.

Ate some delicious laksa johor. This year x balik JB, ingatkan kempunan. rupanya ada orang nak buatkan. nice.

Melencong to Subang for some much needed hanging out, window shopping and dinner.

Sent them besties back home again.

Got home, Ibu buatkan nescafe, and tarik-ed by moi. double nice.

Sembang with cousins outside, and went to play a round of snooker (them, not me).

A looong and fun half-day. thanks.

p/s: Esok kerja... T_T

Woa Woa Balik Kampung

Thesis claims are in.

Paycheck has been deposited.

Clothes and stuff are ready.

New car has also arrived (although not mine).

Which leaves..... When are we going back ?!

First week

Alhamdulillah, things went well.

But then again, don't they all?

Lull before the chaos.. Quiet before the storm..

It'll be SNAFU soon. I can feel it.

Just please let it be after Raya.

Hello !

Hello new world. Await my existence.
And bow down in awe and amazement.

Decision decisions...

you pray to get more. and now that you've got it, you don't know whether to go or not..

the place is 3.5 hours, 400km and at least RM70 away.. where am I gonna get that much money? I certainly don't feel comfortable asking from them again, I've already asked way too many times..

Or should I just reject it?

But then again, there's the lure of meeting a friend while I'm there...


Remember the days when the hardest decision you had to make were "Where to eat" or "Do I go to class or not today" or "Where should we hang out this weekend" ?

Be Grateful

Resisting dining pleasures

Resisting fleshy pleasures

Giving in to peace

Giving in to calmness

Month of wealth

Month of fortune

Time to recharge

Time to change

Be charitable

Be happy

Be forgiving

And be grateful, thankful

Where "pahala" are aplenty

And fortunes in abundance

For 'tis the month of Ramadhan

Thank You for the many opportunities, hope one succeeds. Amin.

.no.title.

Fine.

Go ahead.

See if I care.

Actually, I do care, but...

What else to do when you can't eat

Got my new Stephen King novel yesterday. Yay. Got a 1000-page companion to keep me company when food and my human friends can't. ;)

No food, meaning can't eat. This is because Ramadhan, the month of fasting, is approaching in approximately either 1 hour or 25 hours, depending on the announcement tonight. Sigh.. Can't believe it's been a whole year already. Preparation is still nil. Total overhaul is required, stat.

Happy fasting to all my Muslim friends. Semoga Ramadhan kali ini lebih bermakna dan membawa 1001 keberkatan, InsyaAllah.