first for 14

Such a long time since i last penned anything here. So, what has changed?
1. The year. Obviously.
2. Friends. Some have gone, some have stayed, some have been forgotten, sone are new.
3. Work. Wish i could say for the better (promotion, bloody high raise, etc.), but sadly no. Work is getting annoying and no longer enjoying it. Only you give me reason to stay and continue to eagerly wake up and come to the office everyday. Thank you for that my dear :-)

Welcome to the new year 2014 everyone. Yeah a month late.

long time no write

it would seem that i have left this part of my life behind. i missed this.

i missed reading bout my friends pouring their heart out.

why is everyone so far away.. me so sad 

People I miss

i saw them.
i saw you.
i saw us.
i saw all of us.
a sad happiness (does that even makes sense?) descends on me.
i love you peeps

12042011/2012

It seems like tomorrow has come
As if it had never gone
Bringing back memories of friends
Memories with a happy tune

It seems like tomorrow is approaching
As quickly as it had left
Reminding me of a new bond
Forged in friendship and in love

It seems like tomorrow is arriving
And a year blinks by
Thinking of you and me
Thank you for the gift
Gift of friendship

Happy anniversary dear friend
May it last 'til death do us apart, and beyond

Of hearts and Pains

Assalam..
Seems like a long time since the last time i posted here. been busy + too lazy. work is tiring.

Anyways, in light of recent events, i felt like i had to express these feelings somewhere.

On Saturday morning (25th Feb), my mom complained of back pains, so I sent her to the nearest hospital. After a couple of checkups n whatnots, the doctor called me in to explain. Turns out she had a mild heart attack the night before. I was like, "what?".. Since I was the only one at the hospital with my mom, i felt a bit of loss for words and didn't really know what to do.
 An ambulance ride later (which i admit i kinda enjoyed, despite the circumstances), we arrived at the National Heart Institute's emergency. The docs n nurses did what they had to do (I have no idea what), and after a long wait, my bro n cousin n I (they arrived half an hour after me) were called in to follow my mom to the ward.

i was feeling really lost. hell, what was i supposed to do? This isn't something you experience on a day to day basis. Thankfully my dad arrived around noon from Melaka (cancelling his weekend teaching workshop), and took things out of my hands.

I would be lying if I said i wasn't worried, and naturally my thought began to wander to the bad to worse to the morbid. ughh.. never leave me alone to mull things over.

So right now, waiting for the doctors to do whatever they need to do in the following days (still, i have no idea what) amongst the relatives from Shah Alam, Melaka and Johor that came to visit her.

This post may not be read by a lot of people but nevertheless, for those who do read it, I would really appreciate it if you could pray for her. Thanks. :)

2012

first post for this year. wishing a great happy new year to everyone! hoping for the best, hoping for success, hoping for love, hoping for a financially better year..

fairness and equality

life can be - and is - unfair. people, however CAN be fair if they choose to. when they say they're being fair but in reality they aren't, that's just plain hypocritical  and can be cause of an argument. and when it's someone you love and respect, it's even more so.

where are your promises of fairness? where are your words of equality for all? what happens to us now?

B*tches and their b*tchiness

You are a nuisance. You don't belong here. You are not welcome. And now you dare invite yourself to a family event? Have you no shame?

weekend well spent

previously mine is currently someone else's. good to see you happy.

rich man's world full of people watching the many ways to waste money.

all black met all gray at night and only went home after a figurative alarm sounded.

and that's how i spent my 3 day weekend.

weekends and weekdays

how fast a weekend flies by. sheesh.. can't someone invent a 5 day weekend and 2 day weekday? T_T

parasitism

parasites take but never gives anything in return. parasites harm their hosts or even kills them. parasites should be exterminated but are often difficult to do so.. oh how i hate those that take anything they like but contribute nothing in return.

wishes..

how I wish it was true. it would be one less item to think about.

Graduation Blues

it's time. hello after a long absence, and finally goodbye to 4 years' worth of friends, acquaintances, crushes, and enemies.

nothing so far could compare to the importance and joy of this day, however this occasion also marks a new chapter on life without old friends by our side.

"As we go on we remember all the times we had together"

Stay in touch, friends. InsyaAllah we'll meet again soon..

Ghosts of Conflicts Past

not looking forward to rehearsal and despite it being an obvious reason to be happy, not looking forward to convocation either..

its not as easy as "just forget it" as others easily say. how are you supposed to face people that were once involved daily in your lives and were more than just friends?

the only highlight would be the meet up of the besties and the unusual circle of friends I had gained at the end of last semester. thank you for being a reason for me to even come at all.

Simple Beauty

A friend alerted me about this just now. I went outside, and indeed, it was a magnificent sight. Unfortunately the pictures i took weren't able to capture a nice picture. this one was one of the more clearer photographs taken, courtesy of a friend who posted on Facebook. But even this doesn't do justice.

A halo of light around the moon. When you think about it, basically it is merely the moon and the sun's reflection off the moon's surface (and probably some scattering of the light waves through the atmosphere, but better if you ask friends from NASA). but the result... Simply beautiful. Praise be to Allah.

The Wedding by Nicholas Sparks

I haven't written a book review in quite awhile, been busy. So here goes.

"The Wedding" is a sequel to "The Notebook". The book starts with a monologue, or sorta like a narration by the main character, Wilson, whom is married to the daughter of The Notebook's main character, Noah. Wilson is a workaholic and an unaffectionate husband and father, who realizes his life needs a major turnaround after unwittingly forgetting his 29th anniversary, causing both Wilson and his wife to think about their life and future, and where Wilson vows to make amends. We follow Wilson's story up to his 30th wedding anniversary, where he plans something special for his daughter's so-called wedding and his own anniversary.

Very romantic and moving, and you can't help feeling sorry for the guy, because what he goes through is only normal; a guy barely out of college, working feverishly to make ends meet for his family and working like the devil for years, up to the point he becomes almost like a stranger to his own wife and kids. In the end he make up for everything and more. Makes us wish that real life could always be this heavenly. ;)

The truth, the missed, and the hope

A string of bad decisions. Yup. That's me.

They say we're supposed to learn from our mistakes. I learn (or at least I try), and yet I still keep making the wrong decisions. Sometimes, the same one over and over again. ughhh...

Life's just messed up. But can't really blame life. To quote you, "Because of life I met you". Btw, good to see some part of the old you that I've come to know and love is still there. I've missed it. :)

Hope this time around, my choice is correct. Or at least, not regrettable. Yeah, I'll settle for not regrettable. It already has the beginnings of one, hope it continues.

P/S: I enjoyed my first K-pop karaoke-ing with you peeps. LOL

decide..

Here we are at the end of the month of syawal. also the end of september, which is part of the year 2011's final quarter. our convocation looms, bringing along a frenzy of questions and last minute payments & preparations. sigh..

what about work? not really enjoying it. what is my purpose of even being there? i wonder. i don't wanna be accused of hopping jobs, but under the circumstances...

crappy decisions everywhere..

thrown

You say you care, but you want to be out of their lives. how is that even possible?
why do you keep pushing people you care about away? just because you have bad history with it doesn't mean you have to avoid it from happening again every single time, cuz that's just BS.
or is it because they - or rather, I - don't really matter that much to you? is it that i just happened to be conveniently there for you? now i'm not there, you can just discard me like a torn t-shirt?

it's just plain selfish. and i never thought you to be as one. you disappoint me.

Weekend after Raya

Start the day with a cup of coffee, as usual.

At noon, went out to reload my TnG, then picked up my school besties to go beraya.

Ate some delicious laksa johor. This year x balik JB, ingatkan kempunan. rupanya ada orang nak buatkan. nice.

Melencong to Subang for some much needed hanging out, window shopping and dinner.

Sent them besties back home again.

Got home, Ibu buatkan nescafe, and tarik-ed by moi. double nice.

Sembang with cousins outside, and went to play a round of snooker (them, not me).

A looong and fun half-day. thanks.

p/s: Esok kerja... T_T