The truth, the missed, and the hope

A string of bad decisions. Yup. That's me.

They say we're supposed to learn from our mistakes. I learn (or at least I try), and yet I still keep making the wrong decisions. Sometimes, the same one over and over again. ughhh...

Life's just messed up. But can't really blame life. To quote you, "Because of life I met you". Btw, good to see some part of the old you that I've come to know and love is still there. I've missed it. :)

Hope this time around, my choice is correct. Or at least, not regrettable. Yeah, I'll settle for not regrettable. It already has the beginnings of one, hope it continues.

P/S: I enjoyed my first K-pop karaoke-ing with you peeps. LOL

Book Frenzy

Finished Sparks' novel "The Last Song" last night. Sad story. Nearly shed a tear for Ronnie. Nearly. Now reading "The Lucky One", also from Sparks. So far so good, reached the part where the ex-marine gets a job at a dog center.

And waiting for the book I ordered to arrive. Actually it already arrived this morning, but since I was still asleep when the delivery van came, I'm gonna have to go to the main post office to collect my package. "Under The Dome" by Stephen King. Got it here.

I'll be signing off now. Need to find out what happened to the marine and his friend after the explosion. Toodles.

p/s: Off to see some friends tomorrow. How I wish you could be there too. miss you

Today, Tomorrow and So On

missing you and you and you.. 

and especially you..

Vid taken from Youtube, "Suara (Ku Berharap)" by Hijau Daun

Night Ramblings

It's been 3 months. 3 months gone since I first saw your smile light up the room.

Damn, I can't believe it's been that long. How time flies when you want it to slow down, and how it creeps on at a snail-like pace when you want it to go faster...

I'm happy where we are now. Believe me, I am. :D

But it doesn't mean that I don't think about the past and future, the what should and what ifs..

Its a cold night here. Drizzling. Might even pour heavier later tonight. Makes me miss you more.

Wanna have some ice cream soon. brrr...

MonthLongAbsence

It's been a month since I last saw your pretty face...
The distance that separate disappear now when I'm dreaming of your face..
I'm here without you baby but you're still on my mind..
And I think about you all the time..

Distance was supposed to make my heart forget
But nothing has changed, it grows fonder instead
Oh boy, this is not going as planned..

Bits n pieces taken from 3 Doors Down - Here Without You

Silver Lining

As I once said, talking to you always brings a smile to my face by the time we end our meeting or by the time I hang up. You always manage to find and show to me a silver lining whenever I say it's dark. And today you did it again. To say my hopes were dampened would be an understatement after finding out what I found out. so, thank you for your words. Straightforward, true words. Sometimes I wish I could be your silver lining, your moisture-tolerant shoulder, your beacon of light, your glimmer of hope when you need it. I wish I could just do something for you in return, I know you more than deserve to be treated nicely.

Forgotten No more~

One of my first poems I wrote in this year of 2011. Inspiration hits when the mood is there. The mood comes when emotion is touched. :)

Will you be there when I need you the most?

Will you brush away my tears when they fall?

Will you make me smile like a crazy idiot?

Will you do anything to make me happy?

Will you promise never to break a promise?

Will you trust me when i don't trust myself?

Will you pick me up when i fall to the ground?

Alas,

For these I can give you no answer

I am not a reader of minds

Nor an owner of a magical crystal ball

But please dear, look at me

Look into my heart, my soul

And tell me what can you find

Can you see it in my eyes,

In the way I look at you?

Can you hear it in my voice?

Can you see that I won't leave you behind?

Can you see that I would never forget you?

Can you see that i would always treat you right?

And can you see that I view you as a door, not a key?

A door to the unexpected and undreamed of

Full of surprises and the unexplored

I cannot promise to fulfill all of these words

I am but a lowly and humble human

But if you can trust me, if you believe me

I will perform this pledge to the best that I can

Yes, I am merely a lonely passer-by

Possessing nothing but simple words as my weapon

Paper and technology as my battle field

And the World Wide Web as my messenger

So, I send this to you, dear friend

With the glimmer of hope, hope for a chance

Will you let me enter into your life?

Will you allow me to steal your heart?

Because you are lovable if you want to be.

~product of IzzJ 19April2011 514pm~

Friendsforlife

late at night. it's freaking 3am and can't sleep. feeling melancholy and sentimental all of a sudden. don't ask me why. when it happens, it happens. and the feeling reminded me of an old evergreen song, "That's What Friends Are For". Dedicated for my friends, longtime and newly forged, current and previous, and for the one and only friend-turned girlfriend-turned ex-turned close friend. Just a gentle reminder, cuz that's what friends are for...

And I never thought I'd feel this way

And as far as I'm concerned

I'm glad I got the chance to say

That I do believe I love you

And if I should ever go away

Well, then close your eyes and try to feel

The way we do today

And then if you can remember

Keep smilin', keep shinin'

Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure

That's what friends are for

For good times and bad times

I'll be on your side forever more

That's what friends are for

Well, you came and opened me

And now there's so much more I see

And so by the way I thank you

Whoa, and then for the times when we're apart

Well, then close your eyes and know

These words are comin' from my heart

And then if you can remember, oh

Keep smiling, keep shining

Knowing you can always count on me, for sure

That's what friends are for

In good times, in bad times

I'll be on your side forever more

Oh, that's what friends are for

Whoa... oh... oh... keep smilin', keep shinin'

Knowin' you can always count on me, for sure

That's what friends are for

For good times and bad times

I'll be on your side forever more

That's what friends are for

Keep smilin', keep shinin'

Knowin' you can always count on me, oh, for sure

'Cause I tell you that's what friends are for

For good times and for bad times

I'll be on your side forever more

That's what friends are for (That's what friends are for)

On me, for sure

That's what friends are for

Keep smilin', keep shinin'

Talking To You

From Bruno Mars' "Talking To The Moon", with a few adjustments to suit how I am feeling right now.. okay, I admit some of 'em are a bit weird, but... :)

I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere in Kay Ell
I want you now
I want you now
My friends all think I'm crazy
But they don't understand
You're all I have
You're all I want

At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself

Talking to the phone
Trying to get to you
In hopes you have
credit to use
To talk to me too
I'm not a fool
Cuz we're not alone
Talking to the phone

I'm feeling like I'm needed
The reason why you smile
They say
I've gone mad
Yeah
I've gone mad
But they don't know
what I know
Cause when the
sun goes down
Someone wants me there
Yeah
Wants me there with them


At night when the stars
light up my room
I sit by myself
Talking to the phone


Trying to get to you
In hopes you have
credit to use
To talk to me too
I'm not a fool
Cuz we're not alone
Talking to the phone


Ahh Ahh,
Ahh Ahh,


You always hear me calling..
Cause every night 
I text into the phone
Still trying to get to you


In hopes you have
credit to use
To talk to me too
I'm not a fool
Cuz we're not alone
Talking to the phone


I know you're somewhere out there
Somewhere in Kay Ell

Thank You~

Say thanks for time spent

Say thanks for the things we shared

Thanks for every laugh I was blessed to hear

Thanks for every smile I was fortunate to see

Say thanks for having you my dear

Yes even for awhile

Although short the loan was

Doesn't mean most easily forgotten

"Thank you"

Difficult to say, it is not

But the affect? Profound, it is
Say thanks for everything

Thank you Piqa ku

Thank You Allah

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