When Boredom Sets In

Thursday. Exactly a week since the interview. Been officially unemployed for a month now. Boy, sitting at home sure is boring. Today, I've been glued to the home PC, watching the last few episodes of Smallville, including them much anticipated series finale. Yes, series finale, not season. After 10 ghoulishly long seasons, it's finally over. Mixed feelings about the ending episodes. Disappointed to see the final allegedly-epic battle last only a few seconds (again, as in the Doomsday episode). And quite a number of loose ends too.

Anyway, when i checked the mailbox around 5pm (yes, i didn't venture out of the house the entire day. Sue me), I found a curious pamphlet. Upon further inspection, I saw that it wasn't a pamphlet but a newspaper. What surprised me was that it was from a political party and addressed to me. My first thought after seeing from where it came from was "Hey, I don't remember subscribing to any newspaper from any party. Why the hell are you people sending this to me?". Anyway, I brought it in and flipped through the pages. Yada yada yada... Government did this, didn't do that.. blahblahblah.. The people this, the people that.. yackyackyack.. and so on and so forth.

But what caught my eye was one of the article's headline, "Generasi Y Penentu PRU13", where PRU being Pilihan Raya Umum, or General Election. To be honest I'm not very fond of either side of the Dewan Rakyat, both are, in my eyes, are full of hot air and hypocrites of the highest order. A friend once told me that all of us are hypocrites in one way or the other, and I agree with her, but being way too obvious a hypocrite, especially since you are the leaders, is really annoying for us down here. So I was amused to see the article. I scanned through it and couldn't agree more. This was what I was talking about just yesterday. We, the youths, have an important role in this country's future, some of us already ARE playing a big role. We have our own opinions and ideas for our future. We can't just be pushed around or forced to be quiet like small schoolchildren. And we are certainly not happy with what see around us today. By denying us the freedom and the rights that we are entitled to in this blessed country, one side is pushing away a powerful force that can make or break any type of governing body.

What the hell are both sides doing? One side is pissing off and choking the people, the other side are a bunch of "lalang" and endangering the people. Both of you are losing sight of the REAL issue, the REAL reason we gained what we gained more than 50 years ago, the REAL reason you are in office, be it as an Opposition or Government. I think it's time someone knock both your collective heads together and put you back on track. Either that, or step down and make way for  younger minds, for a fresher perspective.

On a lighter note, since I finished the Smallville series, it's time to finish off my other series. Maybe i'll start with Chuck, I miss the Intersect and his team of super-spies. Or maybe the blasphemous Supernatural. Kids shouldn't be watching it without adult supervision and ample religious knowledge. Angels fighting over control and killing each other? God goes missing? Sheesh, dangerous much. Also have lots of other series. Hmm.. I'll pick one tonight then. :)

Freedom of Information? my freakin' a*s

Situation:

Today at noon I was downloading a new series, Game of Thrones, following the recommendation of a good friend of mine. So, I downloaded all available episodes, up to the 9th episode. Tonight, I go to the same website to get something else, and all I got was an "Oops..!" announcement from my internet browser.. 

WTF!!! Man, I was pissed. Hell, I still am. Why, in the name of the Gods of  P2P, did you freaking people block it?! What would be the use of introducing a high-speed internet connection to us citizens and then remove the MAIN reason we upgraded to the high-speed connection? Bloody freakin' idiots. For what?

Dear Mr. Filmmaker, 1: "Unauthorized use of copyrighted work" is not destroying the industry because there IS no film industry whatsoever to destroy. Most of your movies ALREADY suck, so what is there to destroy? Sorry, but in any given year, the number of good movies can be counted on the fingers of one hand, at best two. So don't complain. You guys suck... And 2: Err, hello? Most of us out here don't even download for profit, but just for personal use. Why not go and take down people that do? I still see porn being sold in the streets, I still see shops selling obviously pirated CD's at legitimate shoplots. What about them? Why not block websites that share journals too, since those research were done by hardworking people, consuming a lot of time to study. Why not block websites that share pictures and photographs too, since those photographs were taken and edited by hardworking people. Why not block websites that share installer software too since those softwares were developed painstakingly by people. Next thing you know, online newspapers will be blocked, and then blogs, followed by social networking websites. Why not just block the whole damn Internet while you're at it? And oh, don't stop there! Block the media too, television and radio cuz they are a source of sex and violence. And then block newspapers and magazines, cuz that's how people learn about gossip and immoral stories. And if you were wondering, all that was sarcasm... I repeat: bloody freakin' a-holes.

Let's give an everyday example, say a knife. It can be used to cut up meat and veggies in the kitchen, or for survival in the wild, or cutting pieces of rope or wire at the local hardware store, or to stab and kill people. But you don't ban the selling of the freaking knife just because some people decide to use it for bad purposes, do you? Is it the knife's fault it killed a person?

Basically, you can't ban everything in the world, you can't censor or ban everything from being viewed by the public.. you can't control the Internet, it's a free place. And by doing what you just did, you have just made yourselves VERY unpopular among the younger generation, which make up more than half of Internet users in this country (Nielsen, Apr 2011). And according to history, youths are a force to be reckoned with..

Just a piece to vent my frustration. There are many other ways to circumvent the ban, but still... sheesh.

Silver Lining

As I once said, talking to you always brings a smile to my face by the time we end our meeting or by the time I hang up. You always manage to find and show to me a silver lining whenever I say it's dark. And today you did it again. To say my hopes were dampened would be an understatement after finding out what I found out. so, thank you for your words. Straightforward, true words. Sometimes I wish I could be your silver lining, your moisture-tolerant shoulder, your beacon of light, your glimmer of hope when you need it. I wish I could just do something for you in return, I know you more than deserve to be treated nicely.

Deflated Hopes

Once upon a time, there was this company. They took in students for internship from various engineering disciplines, mine included. But now when I am trying to find work there, all the available positions I see are positions for people with only this one certain type of engineering degree, mine NOT included. How can you offer internships for my discipline and yet have no available openings for permanent staff? And here I was, hoping upon hope that they would have a suitable position - any related position - for my qualifications . Sigh.. Back to square one, I guess...

Currently Reading: Sherlock Holmes The Complete Novels and Stories Volume 1

Finished "The Notebook" in a few hours after started reading it. The story was nice, the plot was lovely and simple, the characters were easy to relate to. I realised that I haven't actually read a love story before. All in all it was okay. But a bit too much love in one book, kinda overdosed me. So now I'm switching to a more logical and thrilling read about the famous Sherlock Holmes. Gone through the first story and halfway into the second, where Holmes and Watson are introduced to the lovely Miss Morstan. The English used in the novel is an old type of British English, making it a bit difficult to understand and causing me to constantly flip through a dictionary. But it is enjoyable so far. Can't wait to finish so I can get Stephen King's "Under The Dome" and Sparks' "The Wedding". heheh... hey, just because I'm a guy doesn't mean i can't read love stories :)

one down~

Today's interview went well I think, Alhamdulillah. At the end of my allocated 30 minutes, the interviewers even had the courtesy of giving out pointers on how to handle future interviews. memang terbaik lah Mr. Zaidi and Mr. Suffian. Thanks a lot for your time and advice. The results will be known at the latest first week of July. dang, so long ah? In the meantime, I'm praying I get more calls. I'm dying of boredom at home...

Currently Reading: The Notebook

While waiting for the briefing session to start this morning and also on the train back home after the session was over, had time to open up a new book i just got yesterday at Mydin USJ. It was one of those foldable-table type shops in front of the escalator on the first floor. Found tons of books that I wanted but hadn't the money to buy, and here they were at reduced price. So, i "borrowed" money from my mom (thanks! i'm still broke) and got some books. I wanted to get a whole lot more (the other Nicholas Sparks books, Stieg Larsson's "The Girl Who..." collection, and Stephen King's "Under The Dome", but wo meiyou qian.. no money lorr). In the end I took "The Notebook" by Nicholas Sparks and "Sherlock Holmes: The Complete Novels and Stories Volume 1" by Sir Arthur Conan Doyle. Yeah yeah i know, they're pretty old books but I haven't read them yet. Bite me.

So far, The Notebook is okay, still getting to know the two main characters. Probably will comment on how it was when i'm done, if I feel like it :)

Off To Work?

Got my first call for an interview, finally. Alhamdulillah.. Today was just the initial briefing and a technical test. although we had no idea what the test was trying to prove. The first part was okay, simple and straightforward, unless there was a hidden agenda there.. they gave us a couple of technical drawings like at school and told us to draw in the missing views. you know, the plan view, elevation view etc.. so it was okay. the SECOND part however is a different story..

Imagine a photograph of an oil rig out at sea. the question: "If you were to make a vertical cut of the ocean beside the oil rig, what would you see? draw it in the blank space below". There was also a second photograph, this time an oil refinery plant on land, with the same "vertical cut" question.
Say what? I don't have x-ray vision, how am i supposed to know what's under there.. So, i just drew what i could imagine. it was ridiculous after it was finished, but hey, they wanted a drawing, i'll give them a drawing..

Hope all goes well for my first interview tomorrow!

Wedding conversations

Conversation yang agak sentap between my family members during one of the wedding kenduri we attended this weekend:

Sentap #1
Mak unggal fuzi: Zuden, girlfriend awak yang aritu ada lagi x? ala, yang Pak busu awak tolong hantar sampai ke rumah aritu masa kat johor.
Me: *dalam hati* "apakah? how did you even know that?" *out loud* Huh? girlfriend? oh yang tu.. tak lah, x ada apa2 lagi dah dengan yang tu..
Ibu: Dia dah 2 kali tukar dah tu..
Me: "ughhh... dengar pulak mak aku ni kalau bab awek ni"

Sentap #2
Ayah (to Mak unggal fuzi): Nanti awak nak buat knduri anak awak, awak sponsor 50 orang jemputan je, senang. the rest guna live telecast je, webcam ke youtube ke..

Mak unggal fuzi: Wah, mmg jimat. OK jugak tu. kita bayar 50 orang untuk family terdekat je, yg lain-lain kita guna internet je. Hah Zudin (me), dengar tu. nanti ayah awak support 50 orang je tau. yang lain awak jemput through Fesbook and suruh witness it online je, x payah susah2 datang. jimat duit makan pun jimat. kalau nak buat kat atas Gunung Kinabalu pun xpe. yang penting saksi tu je.

Me: Erkkk... Haha betul la tu, ok jugak. *dalam hati* "Why me? ramai lagi orang laen kat sini yang  x kawen lagi kot. and motif aku nak buat kat Gunung Kinabalu?"




Conclusion: I hate school holidays yang banyak wedding, ada je nanti aku kene perli T_T

Forgotten No more~

One of my first poems I wrote in this year of 2011. Inspiration hits when the mood is there. The mood comes when emotion is touched. :)

Will you be there when I need you the most?

Will you brush away my tears when they fall?

Will you make me smile like a crazy idiot?

Will you do anything to make me happy?

Will you promise never to break a promise?

Will you trust me when i don't trust myself?

Will you pick me up when i fall to the ground?

Alas,

For these I can give you no answer

I am not a reader of minds

Nor an owner of a magical crystal ball

But please dear, look at me

Look into my heart, my soul

And tell me what can you find

Can you see it in my eyes,

In the way I look at you?

Can you hear it in my voice?

Can you see that I won't leave you behind?

Can you see that I would never forget you?

Can you see that i would always treat you right?

And can you see that I view you as a door, not a key?

A door to the unexpected and undreamed of

Full of surprises and the unexplored

I cannot promise to fulfill all of these words

I am but a lowly and humble human

But if you can trust me, if you believe me

I will perform this pledge to the best that I can

Yes, I am merely a lonely passer-by

Possessing nothing but simple words as my weapon

Paper and technology as my battle field

And the World Wide Web as my messenger

So, I send this to you, dear friend

With the glimmer of hope, hope for a chance

Will you let me enter into your life?

Will you allow me to steal your heart?

Because you are lovable if you want to be.

~product of IzzJ 19April2011 514pm~